I missed dancing and music so much. My body ached for it, but I was wound up in such a more serious, focused place I couldn’t find the time or place for those things.
The pandemic and some other outside factors had given me the learning that it was time to reevaluate my priorities, of which, I was last on the list at the time.
I do earnestly love working, but the things that were really important to me: yoga, writing, music, dancing, meaningful and deep relationships with my family and friends, had all been put on the back burner for many years and I was focused on a job that I loved and achieving specific goals.
I was ready to try to play with balance in new ways and I made a list of things that I knew would set me on a new routine: daily yoga, music, dance, and meditation.
Then, I started searching for what kind of concerts were going to be around this summer and bought tickets for anything that sounded exciting so I could have a place to dance.
Wait, what?
That’s what I said to myself. I’d just moved into a beautiful apartment in Cleveland’s Warehouse District and literally the first thing I thought when the leasing agent showed me the place, is how amazing it would be to dance here. Why was I buying concert tickets as if dancing wasn’t accessible to me anywhere my body is located?
My friends told me I was burned out and needed to just keep taking care of myself, go to the yoga class instead of working another hour or two, they said. I just listened to what I’d been feeling shouting at me from the inside and now my friends were saying...do less and take care of your own needs and desires.
Easier said than done - my solution when things are going off the rails is to always do more - that usually works well and gets results, but it also had drained me in a way I had no idea until I started to come out of it and healing myself with my intune journey.
Fifty-ish days into daily inutne sessions, I’m happy to report I’m no longer missing music and dancing. Currently, my morning routine involves Ciara and Missy Elliot’s 1, 2 Step while I get the day started in my kitchen. I hope someone else reads this one day and starts dancing again too!
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